FINDING RELIEF: a case in point
After days of coding, happy with my accomplishment, I looked at KisssesandHearts.com on another popular browser (Mozilla Firefox), and it looked all screwed up! I was about to faint!!!My biggest fear was that I wouldn’t find a way to make it work in Firefox, hence would eliminate all visitors and potential clients who use that browser. No small loss, considering Firefox is slowly becoming more frequently used than Internet Explorer, my browser of choice. I was also having a major headache over all the coding I will have to test and redo, and possibly having to start from square one. I was humiliated, in panic, and fuming. I was also angry with myself for not being a better web-designer. (Coding isn’t something I do often and it isn’t something I enjoy.) I could see everyone else having perfectly functioning websites and me being the only loser with a capital L that couldn’t make her website. I really felt like the biggest idiot. Up to this critical point, I was very happy with my progress and I even self-congratulated myself for choosing to create my own design, and all these happy feelings were completely shattered.
However, being trained in “energy management,” I knew I had to relax and soften up. So I looked up and focused on other things in my room, which helped me zoom out of the computer world. I focused on my breathing. I started to feel better. I decided to proceed with coding but very slowly this time. Slowly things picked up. When I found a solution, I let go of making my layout perfect. “There’s so much more to my life than this website,” I remembered. I wasn’t exhilarated but I found relief. More relief came when I made some changes to my scrollbar and font, which I had been planning to do even before. Suddenly, positive thoughts came to my mind about how I accomplished a lot this day as I thought about my article layout and the website icon that I figured out how to make. I was quickly getting back to normal. Soon enough, the bad feelings faded, the site was restored, and it actually looked ok on both browsers. I was content!
Dear friends, sometimes your world goes temporarily insane, and you don’t know what to do. Remember to step OUT of your problem until you feel relief, then come back slowly. Pushing yourself is like pushing a key that’s jammed. It’s alright to take a few days before you come back. Release the pressure. Ask your mind to help you see that all is well in the great scheme of things. Some creative solution will be found, I promise.
Monday, July 7th, 2008, 12:14 pm | 
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